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But I really try to do better..
Fighting the good fight…
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And you tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more. Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake… You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love.
Warsan Shire, For Women Who Are Difficult To Love (via alunit)
thetidecomesquick-blog asked:
If I met you I would kiss you c: oh wait... lol
Oh wait you married me!
- me: i should probably tell people how i feel today
- me: it can't be healthy keeping it all bottled in
- me: i need to open up to somebody
- somebody: hey how are you
- me: I AM ABSOLUTELY FINE
The past.
- I've done a really good job lately of living in the present and not focusing on the past. With recent events, that's harder to do. I'm trying to remember all of the good times with my mom, but all I can picture are the bad ones. How can my mom have left me with this many bad memories?
- Living in the past is awful. It reminds you of all the bad things, like exes and bad experiences... I just hope I can get over this loss soon. With this many bad memories, it's not worth it to keep fighting.
Fucking it up.
I know she’s your sister. I feel like I’m the reason you don’t get to see her everyday. I know she’s your sister. I question every decision we make that could affect her because we decided that siblings came first. I’m finding it hard sometimes to stick to that because I am selfish and hurt. I feel like I never get to see you. And every time I stand in that kitchen with her there too, I flash back to the things she said. Maybe she was right. Maybe the shit I think I have going on is nothing and maybe I should go back to trying to give everything. I don’t even know what to do anymore… I don’t know that I ever did…
Belonging.
It’s easier when I think I belong to you. It’s easier to think that we’re engaged or married. Having one of those titles makes me feel like it is harder for you to just up and leave me. I know this isn’t true but it makes me feel better. It makes it easier to overcome the voices.
realizes